Being tortured from the inside out. Losing Faith
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June 27, 2019 at 6:34 pm
I have been away from church for about a month now. I am starting to get back to my daily bible now.
I know people shun away from people that have voices in there head and dont like to comment or say much to them but my voices are much different. They are attacking me mentally and physically. If you were to meet me on the street you would never know that i had voices or pain in my body from them at all. I hide it really well. But it goes on all day. The voices play games with my head all day long and say nasty things to me and can hurt me very badly.Ive asked for prayer before but this time it is different. They are trying to talk me into hurting myself by suicide. My doctors know this and they are keeping an eye on me, but i have had some close calls. i drove out to the lake one day and they can make me think bad thoughts in my head that they want me to do things that will hurt me i cant say what but it would hurt me very badly.
I dont want to do this but they are putting the thoughts into my head. When they do they are very strong. I battle daily with the thoughts of suicide.
I call them very smart people because they sound like real voices in my head and they communicate like real people to me and they say they are messing with the cells and chemistry in my mind somehow. I took up smoking and they change tastes in my mouth to try to get me to quit smoking half way through my cigarettes , they hurt my back, They do sexual things to me, they control sexual functions. they can make me feel like i am having withdrawals from medications when im not, they make me feel so much. They can cause pain all over my body. But most of all the worst of it all is that he can control my mind. He can completely shut down my body from doing what ever he does to my mind.
This may sound crazy but i dont care, i am having someone doing this to me i am not insane. This is happening to me on the inside i can function and do things on the outside but hurting on the inside so badly.
I am losing my faith a little more and more everyday. Because of how dark this person is and how he makes me feel and all the things he makes me think. I dont understand how come God is letting this happen to me? My life has always been miserable i got out of an abusive relationship and now this is happening to me.
Now he, the voice, is talking about putting catheters on me again and sending me to an institution. But i dont want to go there. I know that no one will understand this at all because no one can hear what i am hearing or feel the pain and agony i am in. Alls i am asking is that if you can please pray for me. I really need your prayers. Suicide has been one of the most reoccurring thoughts on my mind and my therapists know and there is no drug that can help me right now that will drive these voices away. They, to me, are real people whether anyone believes it or not. No one really hears what i hear and i know he is the enemy. He has no right to be in my mind regardless.
I believe there are evil people out there and you never know what can happen anymore. I hope you can understand me and please pray with me. i am so close to the end here and dont know what else to do. I really dont want to end up in hell. But i also am feeling like i am living in hell right now. The way i am being mentally abused and physically abused.I truly hope i dont sound stupid. I just wish someone somewhere would hear this and pray and understand that this could be happening. i dont mind if you have your opinions your more than welcome to leave them. but this has been going on for about 6 months to a year. i dont know how much longer i can take itI
I am becoming very saddened and scared. With no will to live. There i virtually no one that can help me except God right now. No one.
June 27, 2019 at 7:48 pmLord, I come to you in the name of your ONLY Son, Jesus to ask you to place a hedge of protection and canopy of peace around Angelhart33. Cast out these demons in the powerful name of Jesus! Give Angelhart33 rest from the attack of of the devil. We know that your whisper is more powerful than anything that Satan could ever shout. Restore and reinforce the faith of Angelhart33. May your glory be proclaimed throughout the land as it is your will that none should perish and especially that Angelhart33 will be rescued from the satanic attacks. I, along with all of your Church, am asking in faith that you will immediately show this individual your unimaginable love, strength, mercy and comfort . It is in Jesus’ mighty name that I make my petition for rescue before you. Please place your mighty, comforting hand upon Angelhart33 even now Lord.
In Jesus’ name.June 27, 2019 at 8:02 pmAngelhart33, I know that what you are experiencing is real. I have a friend whom I have asked for prayer even today that experiences the same. I hear same words of anguish in your request that I hear from her. I know it has to be extremely difficult to deal with this torture but I assure you that there is a circle of great prayer warriors forming around you as they read your request. DO NOT give up! We ARE here for you. To support you in prayer, to intercede on your behalf. If you need to talk to someone I would be glad to listen! As I’m sure there are many more here at the DAB that are WAY more qualified than I that would be glad to do the same and pray with you also.
When anyone speaks of suicide, I take them very seriously and consider this an emergency.
So, with that said, if you so feel inclined I can be contacted at unclebobo (@) yahoo.com
Remove the () and any spaces. My fervent prayer is with you my friend!June 27, 2019 at 8:10 pmPraying for you.
June 27, 2019 at 10:11 pmHeavenly Father, I stand in agreement with the prayers above. My heart is broken for this child, and I can feel the genuine pain weeping from the words in the prayer request. I pray that if the problems experienced by this precious child of yours are due to a medical issue, then I pray that you would give this insight to the physicians who are in charge of her treatment. Father, I pray that you would heal her in the mighty name of Jesus Christ.
June 27, 2019 at 11:35 pmI also join in agreement with these prayers. Holy Spirit I ask that You would do more than we can ask or think as we commit this situation into Your hands. In Jesus precious name I pray. Amen
June 28, 2019 at 12:29 amTonight Lord, we come before You pleading for the life of our sister, angelhart33. In the mighty, holy, powerful name of Jesus, we order satan and his demons to depart from our sister. Leave her alone, be gone, and don’t come back. The Holy Spirit of God dwells in her and you are not welcome. Not in our own power but in the power of Jesus, whose name is above every other name, in heaven and on earth, and under the earth, we command you depart!
Lord, give wisdom to angelhart33’s doctors and medical team, if there is anything they can do to help her, please tell them what it is, and that they do it.I hear your desperation sister and will be in prayer for you daily. If you can, will you check in with us on a daily basis?
Meanwhile, I encourage you to stay reading the Word of God, even leave on Christian radio/worship songs all day and night. The demons will not want to stay where the Lord is worshipped. Listen to Laura Daigle’s song “You Say” over and over. It combats some of what you are talking about.You Say
Lauren Daigle
I keep fighting voices in my mind that say I’m not enough
Every single lie that tells me I will never measure up
Am I more than just the sum of every high and every low?
Remind me once again just who I am, because I need to know (ooh oh)
You say I am loved when I can’t feel a thing
You say I am strong when I think I am weak
You say I am held when I am falling short
When I don’t belong, oh You say that I am Yours
And I believe (I), oh I believe (I)
What You say of me (I)
I believe
The only thing that matters now is everything You think of me
In You I find my worth, in You I find my identity, (ooh oh)
You say I am loved when I can’t feel a thing
You say I am strong when I think I am weak
And You say I am held when I am falling short
When I…Father, protect and preserve the life of our sister and bring her out of this dark, scary, frightening place into Your glorious light. Amen. ~gail
June 28, 2019 at 2:12 amBeloved Angela
I hear your cry and the Lord definitely hears your cry .We ask that you please keep us posted as often as possible of how you are doing.
The enemy is a liar and he is defeated . Please know that I am praying for you and will be back to check on you .
I know that what you are going through is a spiritual attack and hence no medicine can fix the issue oh you hearing voices . But GOD can !!!
I now cover you with the blood of Jesus ! I ask to play worship songs as advised and if you can have songs that call on the blood of Jesus , that will help scare away the demons !! If possible can you wear earphones as you listen to this worship .
I want those evil spirits to be tormented as you worship .
Right now I call on the warrior angels of God to INVADE your environment in the name of Jesus !!I call on the fire 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥of God to fall on you now and upon your surrounding !!!
Let everyone lying demon now be bound and SILENCED in the name of Jesus !!!!Let the BLOOD of Jesus now drown those tormenting spirits in the name of Jesus !!
I pray that you will call on the name of Jesus and every time the enemy attempts to whisper lies to you- you Reject by saying be silent and bound in Jesus name !!
In the name of Jesus I ask that you renounce all sins whether known or unknown that have opened the doors to these attacks .
In the name of Jesus I pray that you will be released from every hold of the enemy !!
May God be with you and shield you .
In Jesus name I pray
AmenPlease come back and tell us how you are doing .
Do not lose hope . There is no life without Christ . It’s a hopeless world out there and every lie of the enemy is hereby silenced !!!! Let the TRUTH TRIUMPH!!!
In Jesus name !
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AmenJune 28, 2019 at 10:36 amJesus, Jesus, Jesus – we call upon Your holy name to break the bondage our sister is experiencing. Set her free, Lord. ~gail
June 28, 2019 at 10:48 amBeloved Angela,
If you need someone to talk to please let us know .
Do not listen to the lies that are right now being whispered to you .
Please tell us how you are doing .
Don’t believe any lie you hear . Fight back in Jesus name . We are here to back you up and the Mighty Man of War ( Jesus Christ ) is in the forefront of this battle so don’t give up or give in to the lies of the enemy .Warrior in Christ
Sheila from TexasJune 28, 2019 at 5:32 pmUPDATE:
Thank you for your prayers, I really need them. I am fighting every day the thoughts in my head and the voices. The doctors say that they have tried all of the medications that they can. They are waiting for something new to come out and i will be the first one to try it. But i am tired of the medications. They dont do anything for me. I dont think they do, but i still take them anyways.I am really worried about my relationship with my daughter. She is pregnant and due in a week and a half. I dont have a close relationship with here because every time that i try to talk or be around her the voices come out and become stronger. My mom has a close relationship with her but i dont. Its hurting me so bad. Same with my son, I dont have a close relationship with him either because the voices are bad at home.
The pain that they cause becomes debilitating. I just cant take it and they do it often and when i try to help people or try to do something with someone. I just dont know what to do, i am hanging on by a string. i am trying my best to live this way i have had my pastor pray for me and prayer warriors pray for me but sometimes i worry that God or Jesus cant hear me. Because of how the voices block things in my mind. I will keep this short, but thank you for your prayers
June 28, 2019 at 8:52 pmI will pray for you that you be healed in the name of Jesus Christ! Let the Holy Spirit inside your heart, let Jesus inside your heart with Jesus in your heart there will not be room for those demons.
Hang in there, please! My email is dojdab@gmail.com if you need to write or talk to someone.June 29, 2019 at 5:08 amAbba, Father! Hallowed be Your Name. We pause a moment in Your Presence as we contemplate in the Spirit what our sister Angela is in battle against. We cry out to You, JESUS and ask YOU to deliver her from the torment of these voices. If all she can remember to say when the voices begin is YOUR NAME, JESUS – we encourage her to do so. We know YOU will honor Your Word – we resist the enemy and he must flee. Father, ignite a fire in Angela’s soul and allow her to rise up in the power of Your Spirit. Thank You Lord, for her courage to submit her prayer request. We press into You and Praise Your Name! JESUS, JESUS, JESUS!
June 30, 2019 at 10:08 amToday Lord, on behalf of our sister, we DABers stand united and call upon Your name – Jesus – to break the power of sin and darkness in her life. By the power of Jesus’ name, we bind the enemy and these evil voices that are plaguing her, and we order them out of her life today and forevermore.
Sister – Start saying the name of Jesus every moment of every day. Lord, be her protector and healer. ~gail
July 5, 2019 at 8:23 amThank you Father that prayers have been going up on behalf of our sister. Angel, although the voices are strong, I pray that you can feel the love of God holding you even closer to him. I agree with my sister, keep the songs of the Lord on in your home and surround yourself with God’s word feeding your soul. Try and step back and focus on the times when you were able to hear God and trust that He has not left you. Even these prayers that you are reading, is a testament that God loves you and cares and understands what you are going through. Each day focus only on that day and the love that is pouring in. We love you my sister and care deeply for you. You are God’s child and he cares for his own. Continue to keep us informed of your progress because we care. In Jesus Name, amen.
July 5, 2019 at 9:00 amPrecious Lord, I join this DAB prayer circle today calling out the name of Angela in your holy prayer chambers. We know that sometimes, deliverance such as needed here requires prayer, patience and persistence. Therefore, we stand before your holy altar and receive the joy you pour out upon us. We intercede again for the deliverance and healing from God for Angela. Father, please pour out your love and healing oil on this precious child. Please spare her life and do not allow the spirit of suicide to overtake her when she reaches points of discouragement. Hold this child of yours close to your breast while you begin the healing process in her body and her mind.
July 5, 2019 at 9:47 amFather, we bring our sister, angelhart33, into Your throne room again today humbly asking for You to help her. In Jesus’ holy, precious and powerful name we bind the enemy that is attacking her and order them gone from her mind, body and life. Set her free, Lord.
Keeping you in our prayers sister! ~gail
1 Lord, how my foes increase!
There are many who attack me.
2 Many say about me,
“There is no help for him in God.” Selah3 But you, Lord, are a shield around me,
my glory, and the one who lifts up my head.
4 I cry aloud to the Lord,
and he answers me from his holy mountain. Selah
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