I saved myself for marriage (a virgin) thinking I was going to be made love to by my husband. It took 6 weeks to consummate our marriage (I wanted to). We might have sex 3 times a year and we have gone a whole twice without having sex. I have tried everything to get him in the mood hair done, makeup & sexy lingerie and I still get turned down. I should be use to it but I keep trying & getting hurt. I have been married 11 years and we have 2 kids despite not having sex often. We both turn 40 in June & feel I can’t do this another 11 years. It has been like this since we said I do & we are in a covenant marriage. He left our non-denomination church & joined his childhood Baptist church & no longer believes in the covenant marriage. He doesn’t want to talk to anyone about it which I got him to do twice in the past and he never went back. In public he can’t keep his hands off me but when we get home it is the total opposite. He says he is not gay or cheating on me. I took him to the doctor about 5 years ago & there is nothing medical wrong with him. I’m angry because I didn’t save myself for this. I’m frustrated because I to make love to my husband. I feel tricked because I thought he was going to desire me sexually. I love him. Over the 11 years I have prayed & fasted & waited now what?