I work for a neurologist who is abusive. The first 3 months or so I nearly lost it and cried every day. Things are a little better. I went without a job for almost a year so I went Into this job rather than confident as desperate and that’s not good. I have never had a set position. I am in marketing but the doctor is all over the place and does not trust me and is micro managing me. I have worked in nursing and I love it but I have been shuffled back and forth and it’s inconsistent. I thrive off of dependability and consistency. This man is cruel and I’ve recently been told that he prescribes himself drugs that are used for anesthesia and morphine patches etc. (illegally) he has been texting me on my off days and is flat out disrespectful and this causes me anxiety. I was texting my mom and I was saying things about him and saying how he thinks I’m a liar and blah blah blah, well the texts went to him. I don’t think he will fire me, but he doesn’t even have me on payroll so he very well can.
This is not the job that I want.
I want to purchase a home and catch up on debt. I was always self employed and I would like to get back into interior design/retail.
I need a miracle breakthrough. I want to be free to minister and not be chained to someone else’s passion. I am tired of being mistreated. I am barely covering bills but at the same time I am SO thankful and I tell the lord all the time how thankful I am for this job. I know it doesn’t sound like it. My coworkers are beyond amazing. They are the best. I just don’t want to stay in a pit. I have been bogged down and need some prayer warriors to help me pray because this has been an all out attack to keep me from ministry and to keep me from prayer life. The atmosphere is draining and I’m just tired of it and need complete deliverance.