Greetings friends ! I hope all had a nice Easter? This year was such a huge spiritual understanding for me. I finally realized that all I have to do is pray for the strength to endure my unbelieving husband and not defend myself or retaliate when he comes against me with many false accusations. This has been happening for 8 years and I always seek to just leave him, but God always closes the possibilities to do so over and over. That idea alone was the battle inside my heart. The thought sounds backwards to the world, but on the very day we celebrate Jesus doing just that, not retaliating or defending himself upon being falsely accused, I too have the ability and that alone broke the curse in me and at least broke a link of the curse in my husband. Derek my husband is not a changed man yet just because the curse is broken in my heart but I know the meaning now of how defending myself or retaliating despite my innocence against the many false accusations that surround me for so long in my own home is like slapping my Savior in the face and feeding the hate in my heart instead. I know I cannot keep this up on my own yet my Lord is my strength and the act of love will melt the sin like wax. It did just that yesterday! When I responded with the words I willingly accept your accusations against me and I just sat there and said nothing else, my husband instantly softened to me and stopped, as he knows truly in his heart Ive done none of the things he says. I know this situation will continue to present itself and now I have the authority to not be offended and I know my Father will strengthen me each time I resist the urge to argue. I must willingly accept the attacks by not responding the way I always do. I know it will not be easy but if I obey there will be power in my heart to accomplish Gods will to redeem my husband who recently learned from a DNA test that he has Israelite blood line on his mothers side. All of this became realized in my effort to speed up Gods Deuteronomy 6 promise that spoke to my heart on March 14, 2020. I believe I got many details incorrect and out of time in my effort to escape my persecution. I know now as I learn to obey more closely I will understand the rest of what God desires. Please pray for me to obey and endure and believe in my Fathers promises no matter how forsaken I feel at times. Each time I obey my Lord renews me and teaches me even more truth. He sustains!!!