Dear Brother Pablo,
He just wants a relationship with you found in prayer, worship and the word. Seek this relationship, spend time daily and devote yourself to him in a daily routine, the daily rhythm is important, focus on establishing what works in your life. This rhythm will be like a beautiful morning sunrise as his light floods in to you. Find new songs of worship, at my lowest time, when I felt hopeless, I could not pray even and had not reason to go on; but I would still worship. Worship lifts the spirit, sing songs to our Lord. In prayer wait on him, often I have not waited to listen, I had to learn to understand how to seek him in prayer, work our how your respond to him, do you hear words like a gentle feather falling, do you see an image or a vision, do you see words, do you feel sensations, wait for him and ask that this is revealed, you will begin to learn how he speaks to you. When you have a sense, ask again to confirm it. God bless you.
Now I will pray for you brother.

Dear Lord Jesus,
One of your precious flock needs to see you, Lord open his eyes and his heart. One of those whom you love and gave everything for you is calling out, Lord be his strength and great reward. Lord our brother whom loves you sees you help him just invest in time with you. Lord you want our relationship, you can deal with everything we bring to you, good and bad. Lord your love is ours please help our brother receive this love and peace. Amen.

Pablo I’m so sorry to hear you’re feeling this way and having these thoughts. I’m happy to pray for You knowing that God will answer. Father, thank You for hearing Pablo’s prayers. Thank You for loving him. He needs instruction in Your Word, Lord. He doesn’t know it enough or understand it. Holy Spirit teach him. Help him to commit to time with You believing that You will instruct him and teach him all things. Give him a scripture that will touch his heart, like “I will never leave you or forsake you.” Whichever verse will speak to him and be the light he needs to get out of depression. Depression, fear and doubt I speak to you in the Name of Jesus and command You to leave Pablo. Be gone in Jesus’ Name. Body, mind and spirit be filled with the Spirit of Christ fully and completely. Thank You Jesus! I pray all this in Your Name.

Pablo, do You listen to Bible teaching online? There are many good teachers online. I listen to James MacDonald – Walk in the Word and Rick Warren – Daily Hope. I encourage you to listen to teachings online. You will be instructed in the Word and your mind will be renewed. If you’ve confessed that Jesus is Lord, the Son of God that came down from heaven, was born as a child, lived, died on the cross for your sin, rose from the dead and went back to heaven where he is now seated at the right hand of God, then you have been saved. You are a child of God. You are now part of His family. You are loved! You are part of His kingdom. He has good plans for you. Jesus calls you to follow him. His Spirit is living inside you. His Spirit will teach you and instruct you. He will lead you into all truth. You have ALL you need in Him. You are never alone. Hear him speak to you. Talk to him just like you would a best friend, because He is your friend along with being your Savior and Lord. He wants to have a close relationship with you. He knows you through and through but wants you to share yourself with Him. I could go on and on about this. I just want you to know that there is SO MUCH He offers you. Believe it. Receive it. He gives you faith and He will wants it to grow. He will make it grow as you walk with Him each day, talk with Him and obey Him. It’s amazingly cool! I want that for you. I’m sorry you don’t know it yet, but I believe you will and that you will share it with many others. That’s how it’s supposed to be. Be encouraged. God is for you! He loves you!!

Everyone has feelings they want to express…that they just want to share, get out, be heard. That’s normal. God wants to hear it all. Hard to believe for me, but I know it’s true. I look back on all the years and can’t even believe all things I’ve thought, felt, and shared with Him. So embarrassing, so silly, but you know what? He understands and He loves me. He has taught me so much. I am SO thankful!! He was faithful when I was unfaithful. He is AWESOME!!! I want You to be able to say and feel the same very soon.

I’ll name some other teachers you can listen to online: John MacArthur, Jon Courson, Charles Stanley. Make sure you’re in a good Bible believing, Bible teaching church. My advice is to not worry about serving so much, in case you’re thinking that serving will bring you fulfillment. Jesus will bring you fulfillment. When your relationship is right with Him, serving will come naturally. Enjoy praising Him and worshiping Him. Yes, seek first His Kingdom and His righteousness and all these things will be added to you. This just means to set your heart and your desire on Jesus and His Kingdom rather than the things of the world. He knows what You need and will provide for you. He knows you want a family, a home, food, etc. You don’t have to worry about any of those things…He will provide. Trust Him. I can testify that He provides for my needs and SO MUCH MORE when I walk with Him and put my heart on His kingdom. It is awesome!

Be strong in the Lord and in HIS mighty power, Pablo.

Blessings from AZ