The lord’s arms are always outstretched, calling us back home to him. Those thoughts are from the enemy. keep seeking the face of God, renouncing all your sins and shortfalls. God is right there, keep drawing near to him. you will hear his voice speak when u open his word. keep reading the word. Also pay attention to your dreams, he’s speaking there too. GOD bless you, I’ll be praying for you.

There is hope! Don’t give up, keep going before God, humbling yourself, repenting, telling him how you love him, how you want to be filled with his spirit. Give him thanks for all he is and has done for you and those you love. Offer him your Praises! You may not feel like anything will change , but the enemy doesn’t want you to be free, he wants to keep you bound, but your Heavenly Father still loves you, and wants you be free. There was a time in my life that I backslid and went through what you are. I too felt God had turned his back on me, but I never stopped going to him, loving him, repenting …. Until I felt the breakthrough! And he didn’t love me then anymore than he loves you now! I pray for Gods mercy and presence to once again flood your life! Determine in your heart not give up on God! Fill your mind with his word, and put on the whole armor of God to come against the lies and powers of darkness! I pray God blesses you soon with his presence !

Your message has been with me since reading and replying to it this afternoon. Tonight as I was listening to some older Christian music, a song came on and I immediately thought of you. It’s a song by Jason Crab, “The Shepherds call” You can find it on you tube. Holding you up in prayer. https://youtube/DjJrmhTZUyM