He is very hurt and angry. He wants to be angry, he believes his name is not written in the Book of Life, he believes he is beyond help. I think there is a part of him that desires to be free of this anger and he does know Jesus is his Lord and Savior. He is afraid that he’s one of the people Jesus will say he never knew. He’s an amazing person, a great dad, an excellent husband. He doesn’t understand (or maybe doesn’t care) that the way he is treating people outside of our family is affecting his family. We are hurting for him and we have to deal with the consequences from these other people. He is tired of people running over our family (and it’s true, these people have been trying to ruin us for years, they have a huge grudge against us and I am unsure as to why) and he says he’s standing up for us. I cannot be the Holy Spirit to him. I pray he hears the Holy Spirit and stops listening to the enemy. I pray that these people will leave us alone and that all plans of the enemy are thwarted. I pray that my husband will go to counseling and find healing, mercy, grace, redemption. I pray that God sends someone to speak into my husband’s life today. That God provides a miracle, because I don’t know that I can be very strong anymore. I pray we have a huge breakthrough like we did on Thursday night, before he regressed again. I pray the breakthrough remains.