Constant Spiritual Attack
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britnysomaPrayers: 0Requests: 1
October 7, 2023 at 3:47 pmHi there, I’m reaching for the power of prayer. My story is long, incredibly detailed, and extrememly hard to summarize. But, I need prayer warriors , as many as possible, so I’m going to try. My fiancé and I, are a match made in heaven; I have no doubt that God made me for him, and him for me. However, we are also a match made in Hell. And when God woke me up, I was able to see more than I intended. I went through a period of fear, moments of “oh that makes sense now,” trauma, and grief….satan has been using my person to “kill me” is how I worded it. Years, I spent before I woke up asking my abusive partner, why do you want me dead? What did I ever do but love you? He would would be standing above me abusing with his nasty words, but I would see this pleading in his eyes; this sadness, a lost look, it had been haunting me for years, because I couldn’t explain it. When I woke up and gave my life to God, the spiritual world was very much alive, and clear then. I would discuss it with my partner, and we had some interesting (unbelievable) moments. I foresaw a separation I told him about, two weeks later ,I kicked him out, a couple weeks after that, I cut off all communication. But, we are suffering. Satan wants to hurt my children and I, and is continuing to use this man that I love to make our lives dark, and at times I feel myself succumbing to it. Life has been so dark and beyond difficult for me for so long now, I keep praying for sanctuary. He grows more evil the more I grow closer to God, and the more I leave him behind. He is consumed in sexual immorality. He is not only addicted, but controlled by pornography and sexual sin….I believe that if it continues the way it is, this 25 year addiction of his will lead somewhere where he cannot be redeemed. I am afraid for his soul, I’m afraid for the children of mine floudering about, not caring about themselves or life because they lost dad number two, I’m afraid that I won’t be able to keep pulling myself up out of the constant darkness. Please pray for us. Pray that M calls upon Jesus, pray that he begs for mercy and redemption and that he repents (he has been involved in the porn addiction since before puberty, so my guess is since a severe childhood trauma). Pray that I find a way to keep my head up, continue to give my worries to Christ, and to find and provide little moments of happiness for my children. M has brought a darkness to us so intense, that I am constantly on my knees in tears begging God to fight these battles i’m too weak for. Pray for my kids. that God surrounds them in his Peace, and provides angels to watch over them and keep them safe, pray that He draws them near to him. My daughters are 12 and 9 (not bio kids of M, but have known him since they were young and consider him dad, and were so excited to be a family ) and my precious son is 3 almost 4 . M is his bio dad and this precious child was the first one to see the darkness in his daddy and was the reason I started to open my eyes. HIs words were “mommy we have good hearts and black hearts, daddy has two black hearts. We all have one good one black, but daddy has two black hearts,” Please pray that if there is no hope in salvation for this man, that I can let hope go, and move on, and that I will find moments to grieve. Life with M has been full of trauma, unanswered questions, fighting, and letting go, and I’m afraid of the grief that has welled up inside of me….so please pray I’m able to let it out safely, and with good choices (I am a habitual avoider since childhood). M is consumed by satan, but there is a person in there, that our God made to lead and protect. It’s almost like he has been fighting this darkness and has been wanting to get out but can’t, but then I have been told that only he can call upon Jesus. It’s very confusing, and me with the wild imagination and insanely analytical brain can easily be consumed by trying to solve problems and finding solutions; so prayer that this natural part of me can be tamed and not drive me mad as it has been. I don’t know very much about spiritual warfare, but I know that his voice changes, and his eyes have turned black, and that I can see the evil separate from the man. And I fear for his soul. This is the best I could offer as a synopsis, I sound like a lunatic but please find it in your hearts to pray despite the insanity of this teeny bit of my story. Things are dark, right now I am fighting COVID, I’m on day 6 in bed wasting away worrying about all the things. We live in a small camper on my abusive fathers property, a camper that is flooding in the bathroom that can’t be used, and that M. owns. So two abusers in cahoots that have control over mine and my children’s lives. We live in Clark County Washington, and Clark county has felt wicked and dark for some years now. I want out. I want sanctuary. We don’t have friends or support here, evil M made sure to isolate us in that way. I see hope in Christ, but I am praying for joy. My children are traumatized, have trouble going to school, we have no income, and are at the hands of satan it feels. But I know, Jesus will prevail. We just need more prayers. One last prayer friends, since childhood, while i should by rights hate men, I have a heart for them. And I feel that God is creating a shift, and I have entire theories on sexual immorality and satans plan, etc., but one theory i know to be true is….it begins and ends with OUR MEN. WE NEED TO PRAY, LORD GOD, TAKE BACK THE HEARTS OF YOUR MEN. OUR LEADERS, OUR PROTECTORS. THEY ARE SUCCUMBING TO SIN, SEXUAL IMMORALITY, BREAKING UP FAMILIES, CHILDREN ARE IN TROUBLE, THEY ARE UNPROTECTED, RIGHT WHERE SATAN WANTS THEM. EASY PREY. BUT OUR CHILDREN BELONG TO JESUS, SO GOD, ITS YOUR TIME TO STEP IN WE NEED YOU TO TAKE BACK OUR MEN. CALL UPON THEIR HEARTS, CALL THEM TO LEAD AND PROTECT AS YOU INTENDED. YOU DESIGNED THE FAMILY UNIT WITH INTENTION, AND WE NEED YOU TO BRING FAMILIES BACK TOGTETHER, WITH YOU AS THE CENTER, AND WITH MEN LEADING. AMEN.
His.debbiePrayers: 5586Requests: 62
October 7, 2023 at 8:48 pmPraying God will guide you to a place of safety and security. May He show you how much He loves you by giving you a way out for you and your children to live and grow in a loving and caring place. Praying God takes the trauma of this life away from all of you. May He give you strength to find a way to provide for your children! In Jesus’ mighty name, amen! 🙏🙏🙏🕊️🕊️🕊️✨✨✨♥️♥️♥️
spiritdoc1Prayers: 40916Requests: 2421
October 7, 2023 at 9:26 pmBeloved britnysoma; You served a great God! The GREAT I AM. Praying with you! Sending love your way. 🙏🏻❤️🕊
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October 7, 2023 at 11:53 pmPrayers go out to you for you to find peace in your life and that a hedge of protection be around you. I pray that whatever God’s will is for your lives that it be done and if that means separating yourself from the situation then it is by his will and also prayers for this person that any attacks or strongholds from the enemy that are upon him be released and that the Holy Spirit work in his life to change him from the inside out. In Jesus name amen
spiritdoc1Prayers: 40916Requests: 2421
October 8, 2023 at 12:18 amDearest britnysoma; Thank you once again, God! You never cease to amaze me! Praying that You continue to give Britney the strength to endure the hard battle ahead. I pray for her enemies, and their evil deeds. I thank you for the cross, where your Son, Jesus Christ has disarmed principalities and power, once and forever! He crashed down his foot so hard, that he not only crushed the head of the serpent but bruised his heel with excessive force. I thank you, Lord, that by the cross of Jesus Christ, Britney have been made free from all curses, witchcraft, and demonic power. She is free by the shed blood, of our Lord and savior Jesus the christ the son of the living GOD. I pray tonite you visit her. As she awakens, may ALL her fears dissipate. In Jesus magnificent name! 🙏🏻❤️🕊
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