Delivered from resentment, anger and loneliness
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thespaatsaintnouveauPrayers: 300Requests: 48
May 25, 2017 at 9:57 amI know the lord is trying to move me into a deeper place, and he can’t do so as long as I am harboring feelings of resentment toward others . I am realizing how much bitterness and anger I have toward my mother and my family. It has been coming to the surface lately and I don’t like it. I am watching her do to my son what she did to me as a child and it’s devastating. I have turned it over to the lord but it’s just hard. She recently complimented me and I realized it was so awkward because she had never done it before. Also she tried to take my picture out of the blue. It’s like ..ok now when I’m in my 30’s? Why? I have to get some independence from her but she has created a dynamic to try to make it impossible and I could easily hate her. I finally aired these feelings to my aunt the other day and she told me I needed to move and get away and then after a long conversation said that I was “too dysfunctional to ever have a relationship”..
I don’t think I’ve ever had words hurt me to the core like those words did. I spent my adult life in an abusive relationship and have spent the last 4 years being obedient to the lord and not even dated in order to become the wife and person that the lord has called me to be. NO ONE could ever know my struggle and pain. I feel like I have been beaten to death because of my loyalty and honor and most of all because I am WAITING on god. It’s like My hope is defered and my heart is sick. I just feel like I look like a fool sometimes and I am so weary and I just need prayer. I feel like I have been so chastised for my faithfulness and I just can’t take it anymore. And I’m so angry and I just can’t live like this. I just need some encouragement. I have felt so alone for so long.SheilaTPrayers: 2920Requests: 24
May 25, 2017 at 12:37 pmMy sister,
I am very sorry for all the years of pain! All the years that the locusts have destroyed! All the holes that the enemy has pierced deep into your heart! All the love that you have missed on! All the abuse that you have endured! All the bitterness and anger that has now resulted out of all the pain … and the list goes on… Know that God wants to give you a BRAND new start!
The hardest thing for anyone to do is to forgive and let go! We have a flesh that is in constant battle with our spirit. People can cause so much pain to us , and sometimes we NOT only hold them captive by failing to forgive them BUT we literally hold ourselves in our self made prison which can be tormenting. With unforgiveness comes so many sicknesses and event torment from the enemy of our soul. So how can we get out of such a mess when it has taken so many years ? We take it all to God and tell him ‘ Take my burden load… I have carried this for way too many years and it is eating me up” .. we remind God that His word in Psalm 55:22 tells us to Cast all our burdens to Him and that He will sustain us. We remind God that He told us in 1 Peter 5:7 to cast all our burdens onto Him for he cares for us and we ask Him to truly make us sense the care he has upon us. We remind God once again that His Word in Matthew 11:29 tells us Come to Me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.
Know that God can not CONTRADICT His word. So my sister I am asking God right now to start healing those wounds that have been inflicted onto you, I am asking God to remove the spirit of bitterness and anger from you in the name of Jesus! I am asking God to break EVERY yoke that the enemy has used to hold you captive all these years!! I am asking God to forgive you for any unforgiveness or resentment that you have held in your heart for so many years!
I am asking God right now by the power of His Holy Spirit to arrest your mother’s heart! Your mother needs Jesus now and I am praying that she will be delivered and set free from the LIES of Satan! The enemy here is NOT you or your mother! The enemy here is Satan and we need to recognize that.
In the name of Jesus I am asking God to raise up a Standard against Satan! I am asking God to set the captives free! I am asking God to soften your mother’s heart , remove the veil that is blinding her from knowing the truth , and to release her from the grip of the enemy in the name of Jesus!
I am asking the Lord God to now start healing you supernaturally so that the shackles of pain/ resentment / un forgiveness/ bitterness can start to FALL in the name of Jesus!!I am asking God to dress you right now with oil of gladness and a garment of praise.
I am asking God to completely heal your heart and give you HOPE! I am asking the Lord God to breathe NEW life into you right now and that he rebukes the enemy ! I am asking God to cleanse you of every TOXIN that the enemy has injected into your spirit over the years in the name of Jesus!
May you be refreshed by God’s goodness! May you now hunger for a deeper and more intimate relationship with Jesus and as you do so, things will start falling into place. Nothing will be perfect because we live in a fallen world BUT you will start sensing the peace of God! Favor will start following you because you will be walking in Forgiveness! People will go out of there way to be nice to you because you are a Child of the Most High and the enemy will have nothing to accuse you of! So be encouraged and know that God loves you so much and that is why he has placed me and many others here to be the hands and feet of Jesus .
Yours in Christ
Sheila from Texas
soundyaaPrayers: 3085Requests: 12
May 25, 2017 at 12:52 pmMy Dear Sister,
You are not alone, thank you for sharing. You are beautiful, intelligent and fearfully made, he put you together in a perfect way and knows you as you know yourself and understands your pain. He needs you to keep coming closer to him, regardless of anything else keep seeking him. Sister I am on the case with Prayer, ok, I will pray everyday for you for 3 months. God wants only good things in your life and to bring you up.Remember the evil one has ONLY come to kill, steal and destroy (John 10:10). The enemy will use people, sometimes those close to you to try and keep you down. What you have lived through sounds so hard, when those who were meant to build you up and love you and foster your courage and confidence have not. That is what God is doing in you, he has begun the process, you are a PRINCESS, you are his treasure, someone with a beautiful heart and worthy only of a man you would consider perfect. Keep following Jesus no matter what. So now I give you a list of things I do when I hit rock bottom:
I spend a lot of time in worship, please see some of my favourite
for you
No longer slaves: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XxkNj5hcy5E
some others
Secret place : https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Wnf4X86iylY
Your love awakens me: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VIMh6lS6VjE
I am they: like https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TUjuRFwwvawI look on twitter and follow only christians – they have so many inspiring messages each day
I pray for others, somehow that helps. God knows why, but i always think, God is close when I am down so I may be able to ask a favour for someone else!
I pray for myself by giving it all to God. DONT harbour any bad feelings it only harms you, give
Remember you are so valuable and precious to God, there is no one like you.
YOU are a JOY bringer, that what you were designed to do and the evil one is doing things to stop you believing that. But the truth of that will set you free.
I love you sister, my prayers and strength are with you and you will sing to God soon enough as you realise he will lift you up so high you will sing, remember you were meant to fly.
soundyaaPrayers: 3085Requests: 12
May 25, 2017 at 12:56 pmAmen Sister Shelia.
On my knees for you now dear Sister.
SheilaTPrayers: 2920Requests: 24
May 25, 2017 at 2:51 pmAmen my brother Andy standing in agreement with you .
God is faithfulthespaatsaintnouveauPrayers: 300Requests: 48
May 26, 2017 at 2:02 pmPraise God!
Thank you for your commitment to the lord and time spent praying for me! He is a living God and an all consuming force and he knows exactly what he is doing in his people.
He is using you! Keep praying for his people!!
I am so honored to be his. He is so worthy to be praised!
I feel completely free from this burden!
This is what he has been doing for me, you see. He has been liberating and setting me free from each and every thing that has held me from the life he has prepared for me.
I honestly didn’t even realize this had been the very thing holding me back and holding me captive. I have been abiding in him and trusting in him and he has been my source and supply. When we do that he has no choice but to deliver us! He can do it in a moment. And he did!
https://youtu.be/B73AaR4-KmYthespaatsaintnouveauPrayers: 300Requests: 48
May 26, 2017 at 2:05 pmThe lord led me to this also..
😉 https://youtu.be/eY2rzDkD1Vwjtylerk9Prayers: 1512Requests: 7
May 26, 2017 at 5:22 pmLifting you up in prayer sister.
soundyaaPrayers: 3085Requests: 12
May 26, 2017 at 6:47 pmAmen.
Thank you for those videos the last one spoke to me. Thank you.
I will continue praying may God continue to lift you high. I will pray for your protection and for his great joy to be yours. In Jesus name. Amen.soundyaaPrayers: 3085Requests: 12
June 17, 2017 at 10:33 pmPraying for you this evening. Would love to know how you are doing. May God lighten your load this weekend and give you, his joy. God bless.
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