For Surrendering Myself and to have A home for my family
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August 2, 2023 at 3:23 amI struggle everyday trying to be a good mother my oldest daughter she’s suffering from depression she wants to be back home with me also my other two children wants to be back home with me too I have no home to call our own we used to stay together in my apartment I just recently got rid of so that I can save money to get an apartment closer to my kids where their school district is but it didn’t happen that way I’ve been staying with family members and Friends giving them money just to sleep on their couch for a while hoping that I would save up for my own place I had jobs but they didn’t work out it was pretty hard to go to work staying in somebody else’s home and they’re running everything including me I didn’t even have a piece of mind to call my own I lost my mother in 2018 July 25th same day as I was born July 25th 1991 it hurts every year when I get closer to my birthday that wasn’t the only thing that hurted me but it hurt at the most to lose my mother and my best friend my kids “oma” grandma in German. The beginning of my hurt as an adult is when my oldest daughter lost her dad my highschool sweetheart the love that got away. He was murdered when she was four so I was left with raising her all by myself she’s fourteen now, as if that was the hardest thing I was going through during that moment it was. but we pushed through it and then I had my second born child a girl she’s about to be six on the 4th of August I didn’t think I wanted to have a second child on that time and years apart right from my oldest child my mom asked me to please have her I looked in her eyes and I said I will my mom was there with me as I gave birth to her she loved on her so much I didn’t have her dad in the picture he wasn’t really trying to be in the pictures when that time so it was good to have my mom’s help and then she passed in 2018 a year after she was born and then my birthday about a week later on August 4th the funeral day so she passed on my birthday and the funeral to lay her to rest was on my daughter’s birthday I know you don’t even sound like something you want to believe but it’s true I’m still trying to remember that is true it happened like that good thing is my daughter she wouldn’t know too much of the feeling of losing someone she looks like acts like dance like sing like so much when she gets older and realize the truth about her grandmother and how much he went to us so past that I had a son he is three now during the time I was delivering him at the hospital after my water broke I didn’t have no one in the delivery room with me like my first two kids so my mother was there I thought about her the whole time like she would have loved to see my first born son she was like oh he’s so handsome and just hear her voice saying that right now he is I just can’t remember how I was in there by myself no loved ones to hold my hand it was just me and a doctor no I take that back it was mean the nurse the doctor didn’t even make it in time so it’s me and the nurse and her helpers they did a good job with help me bringing life into this world by myself sad right but I kept thinking about my mom and how proud she would be how strong I was to do it on my own I did and then his father came from out of town it wasn’t the best relationship between us I was stressing a lot during my whole entire pregnancy I was diagnosed with Bell’s palsy and the middle of my pregnancy towards the middle of my pregnancy so I didn’t get any help with my facial muscles the doctor said I couldn’t cuz I was pregnant just my luck right so I stayed home through my whole entire pregnancy then leave out the house my oldest daughter she had to go grocery shopping for us I can barely even walk during that time anyways so thank God for my oldest she helped me out a lot with me and her little sister as well as herself and we still managed to make sure that she’s went to school everyday and got there on time amen towards the end of my pregnancy my family just I guess a little worried about me that haven’t spoken to me or seen me so my aunt and my grandmother popped up in my apartment I live on the third floor when I used to live on third floor my grandmother she came inside didn’t really talk about the stairs that she had to walk up out of my door and let her in I usually don’t want to be bothered with my family like that but I did that night and she came in and it was still a little dimmed in the living room she tells me to cut on some light it’s all right, Grandma I will she looks in my face she said oh baby what happened so the doctor said his Bell’s palsy as I was trying to get out the words and covering my mouth from the jewel falling down my face she said it’s okay baby you got some oil and I’m bless the oil and I’m putting on your face and I’m going to say a prayer for you the Lord will fix it I didn’t question it my last Hope was to believe in it the prayer helped he did, witness to it my face is almost back the same I just can’t really take pictures like I used to because the flawes in my face are noticable wherever cameras are I’ll get it fixed one-day I’m almost as pretty as I used to be but I don’t really look into my looks to be the best thing that I have as an asset I have bigger plans to get done I look at how I’m blessed to be able to smile almost as big as I used to. Pass that I was in a situation where I was about to lose my apartment when I sent my kids off to a grandmother’s for the summer I have to have my son his dad took him out of town with him it’s not right but what can I say now I don’t have a place the reason was I was supposed to fill out my housing paper with my information that my caseworker sent to me but I have my kids at home with me I didn’t really want to be there at the same time there were people inside my apartments breaking in the mailboxes everybody mailboxes she left a message on my voicemail I replied back to her and I said I didn’t get them later I’ve been staying in my apartment for 13 years and I never missed filling out my information for me to keep a roof over my head and my kids so I told her that but at the same time she was either quitting or see they got fired I’m not even sure still to this day so I reached back out and didn’t get in reply back didn’t even know that was going on with her and so I sent the email saying please send me out another form and I will turn it in and I would like to move to another area which was where my kids are located during that time and it’s right now so didn’t hear no reply back during the time I was still feeling like I don’t want to go back home without my kids I miss hearing them run around telling on each other even the crying I missed I was kidnapped physically assaulted robbed almost murdered it was premeditated by a neighbor that lived near my mother and friend that wasn’t a friend she befriended me for the neighbor as the neighbor was watching since the day of I don’t even know to be exact he washed my mother leave out her home when she passed away on a stretcher and he told me that and he watched holidays there with my family seeing that I wasn’t really too close to them ever since depressing my mother all because of an incident that happened between my sisters son’s father in the neighbor’s brother had altercation that ended up with his brother being murdered by my sisters son’s father who is doing time right now which they have nothing to do with me it all my mother and I wanted to keep peace between the neighbor and us put in the end of that way sad to say two lives got ruined that day mine is ours so he wanted to take his anger out on me and I remember how I was inside an apartment that was almost breaking boarded up all the other apartments around them long story shorts I had to fight for my life I don’t want to go into details of what happened to me no they didn’t get any time behind it although I went to the hospital in the ambulance when I got away thanks to this woman with the baby that was asleep on the couch as I went to her door asking for help so that’s when I went to the hospital and got pictures taken I left I was so concerned for my siblings because they said that they were going to to them next and I’m very protective of my family rather we speak to each other everyday my mother raised us together it was always love in the house when she was there so I still have that in me to be there protector that detectives got in touch with me even went to my apartment and left a business card to get in touch with them and I did I pointed out the people that they had in line up they found the people that did that to me but I was afraid to put a protective order on them because my aunt still stayed across the street from them and I still go there and what they did to me for no reason all because of what happened between my sisters son’s father and the neighbors brother for what they did with that reason I don’t want anything else worse to happen so I’ll let my kids stay with their grandmother I was afraid they know where I stayed they already do I didn’t want them to do anything to my kids at the same time I’m still trying to keep my home my apartment and I’m still reaching out to my caseworker telling her I still didn’t get the form someone’s been breaking in the mailboxes but I did get the form of the inspection after you guys said that I was terminated from my housing how is that possible how old I have an inspection if I’m terminated I went through with inspection yes I did pass like I do all of them at the same time I was sending emails of the police reports to the housing I didn’t get no reply back and I was like how can this happen how did I get terminated I was afraid to go home for the time that I had left but I did because I realized I had to pack up everything that I had made with my kids for 13 years of living there I didn’t know what to do but to pack and get money for the U-Haul storage and find somewhere else to stay with a little money I had and I’m still trying to get through everyday with the hurt that I had to live I’ll be much better though if I had a home so I can heal be with my kids instead of having to visit them or talk to them over the phone I rather have them at home with me is where they want to be it’s my responsibility to raise my kids I can’t even find a good assistant program to help me with the finding housing I don’t want to live on the side that I got kidnapped and I kidnappers live on which is the north side I don’t want to live outside I want to be close to my kids school you want to start over in their area with them I go to church on Saturdays and Sundays I go Sundays with my daughter’s and Saturdays with my grandmother and she doesn’t really help she’s more being about her but I love her and I can’t say anything bad because that’s my mom’s mother she said she pray for us so that’s all I can really ask for I stayed in my grandfather’s camper for a little while till my cousin came back from out of town and he’s back in the camper and now I don’t have nowhere else to lay my head for sure this time I just have a storage I pay for every month and a vehicle that is being used a lot because I do a lot of the store deliveries so I have a little bit extra cash in my pocket for gas I couldn’t keep the glass job that I had because working in a place where mainly men work at auto parts store there were vulgar with the words that they were saying and I couldn’t take it no more on top of everything I was going through I really want to be at work I thought that would be the best thing for me to work and make an income and get closer to saving up and having my own place again for me and my children and it happened that way so I’m stuck with what I have now please someone help me my oldest daughter she feels like she can’t stay over there no more with her grandmother along with my youngest daughter she’s not being treated fairly she’s smart she’s an honor classes and so proud of her but how can her grandmother mistreated the way she does I know I can do more with helping we just don’t see our time I guess I’m just trying to find the best solution for the circumstance I’m dealt with and to find the best words to give my daughter to hang on a little bit more longer I’m trying my best I don’t want her to start being depressed in her own skin because of what her grandmother is making her feel like her grandmother and her dad’s side I don’t know what else to do I tried to tell her to pray until the positive words and she is strong the strongest person I know how can I get through this I tell myself I need to be closer to the Lord it’s not hard it just feels like it’s hard because everything I’m dealt with and I have no time for myself trying to grasp everything that has been in chaos my whole life that I had is gone and I just want a piece of it back and asking for everyone’s prayer to help I apologize if all these words on here are not in sentences or paraphrase correctly but it’s from my heart I’m asking for your prayers anything will help thank you so much for listening and reading my story and that’s been summed up there’s more but that’s for another time I hope that I ended up finding a home soon I have to be out of here within a few days to about a week I was lucky to get approval to stay this long in a camper but after a couple days till week I’m back on the streets inside my vehicle trying to figure out my next move thank you everyone love and peace and blessings good night. Please pray for my daughter’s strength and away from depression and for a home with each other is really what we want that’s our prayer amen.
GLOW!Prayers: 1Requests: 1
August 2, 2023 at 3:32 amA home for my family so we can be back together again and to be closer to the Lord I know with his help none of this struggle that we have overcome would have been possible we just need a home and Union School district where my kids go to school at that would be great better than great a blessing just to see my kids face like Mom you made it we made it we’re back together again and my kids won’t have to see any more pain and tears in my eyes anymore just tears of joy because I’ll be happy which makes them happy and when they’re happy I’m happy I just want a chance to be a mother again in our home we can call our home. Is our prayer for Strength and a Home and Our Family Together.
mkdwhittedPrayers: 1182Requests: 140
August 2, 2023 at 4:02 amMay Jehovah God, provide you with the peace, wisdom, guidance, financial security, support and love that you and your family need. May Jehovah God make away for you to have a home of your own in Jesus name. Blessings and peace🌸
spiritdoc1Prayers: 40315Requests: 2397
August 2, 2023 at 12:31 pmDearest GLOW; There’s NO such of thing of lack! For GOD NOTHING is impossible. Praying for your request in Jesus mighty magnificence name! 🙏🏻❤️🕊
sparrowPrayers: 10294Requests: 19
August 2, 2023 at 2:31 pmFather in heaven, Help her stay in the Word. “His divine power hath given unto us all things that pertain unto life and godliness, through the knowledge of Him that hath called us to glory and virtue.” May doors of blessing open to her to provide a home for her children. In Jesus name
GCOGAPrayers: 16768Requests: 1273
August 2, 2023 at 3:05 pmAbba Father; please open our dabbers heart to receive all the blessings you have planned for her and her family. Praying in agreement for divine intervention 🙌🙏
His.debbiePrayers: 5489Requests: 61
August 2, 2023 at 3:18 pmPraying for the Lord to provide a new home for His beloved daughter and children. May He provide job opportunities, peace, comfort and prosperity for her so she and her family can be together once again! Praying for restoration of her face muscles and strength to continue looking forward. May the Lord mend all the sorrows and sufferings and replace them with joy and blessings! In Jesus’ mighty name, amen! 🙏🙏🙏🕊️🕊️🕊️✨✨✨ ♥️♥️♥️
bodhi02Prayers: 1928Requests: 1060
August 2, 2023 at 11:21 pmPrayers over your life and for guidance and support from anywhere and that there be peace in your heart and life and that you are able to find a place where all of your kids can live with you. In Jesus name amen
cinbahhPrayers: 5504Requests: 78
August 3, 2023 at 8:01 amI join in these prayers in complete agreement for provision in every area of need!
goingupsoonPrayers: 20097Requests: 1132
August 3, 2023 at 12:03 pmFather, we trust that You are working all thing together for our Dabber GLOW’S! good. Help her to keep her eyes stayed upon You, and to never take her eyes off of Your promises. Your a good Abba, Who cares deeply for her and her family. And Your will is to prosper her, and to give her a hope for her future (Je. 29:11). We ask Father that You give GLOW! the desires of her heart, as she delights herself in You…
In JESUS’ holy Name. Amen! ❤
GCOGAPrayers: 16768Requests: 1273
August 3, 2023 at 3:12 pmLifting your petition to the Father. Amen
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