Lost in Grief
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divetek1Prayers: 7Requests: 1
July 22, 2021 at 3:00 pmIt is almost 2 months since I lost Jessie, my bride of 39 years. I have not been separated from her this long since we met, a little over 40 years ago. We guided, pushed and pulled each other through trials and tribulations as we floundered in our relationship with the Lord (and each other). We never gave up on each other (although sometimes it was close) and finally when by outside views nothing seemed wrong but somehow nothing was right, we asked God to take control of everything. EVERYTHING changed. Even though we had loved each other when we were barely able to be together, this change made our marriage and love for each other magical. About 18 years of heaven on earth. Discovering new phases of life together and our relationship with God growing deeply. Then 2 1/2 years Jessie was diagnosed with cancer. This journey brought us even closer to God and each other. Her daily sayings were “Trust in God” and “One Day At A Time”. Even minutes before she passed we got to kiss, smile and her look at me with such love that I felt bathed in white light and flooded with love. My sweetheart was my soulmate. I did not get that or understand that for many years. Her last weeks with those looks where the love of God was shining through gave testimony to that. She would share from DAB Womens Facebook with me so I have kept up and today’s was so powerful. I shared and added the following which is where my prayer needs are: So much truth. What will I fail to surrender to the Lord today? When will I realize I am always happier, calmer, more peaceful, etc. when doing his will not mine. So let me have eyes to see, ears to hear and a heart to follow you. I ask for wisdom and understanding especially now that I am wandering lost, lonely and confused in the desert. Please be patient with me Lord while I try to see how it is possible to be used by you when I am no longer whole without Jessie Ranck being here with me. Please give me strength when I have none left and am crumbling to pieces. Please comfort me through the pain of my soul feeling as if it is shredded and ripped apart. 💔 And most of all, yes Lord through it all, please make me more like you. 🙏❤️🙏
spiritdoc1Prayers: 40015Requests: 2385
July 22, 2021 at 3:40 pmAmen🙏🏻
michellymabizelaPrayers: 66Requests: 16
July 22, 2021 at 4:03 pmpraying for you brother YAH is with you all the time
emily.r.kellyPrayers: 11Requests: 3
July 22, 2021 at 4:49 pmPraying for you right now
goingupsoonPrayers: 20097Requests: 1132
July 22, 2021 at 5:36 pmMoving sentiment. I sensed your eternal connection to your beloved soul mate. Thoughts and prayers going out to you my beloved brother in Christ. His love never fails, what you had with your precious wife will live on forever. As the two of you will Share eternity together as One♥️
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