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January 28, 2022 at 9:50 amOn March 14th 2019 I was standing on a chair in my living room with a rope around my neck. I to this day don’t know why but I said this. I either need your help or I will be seeing you really soon. The second I finished saying that the screen on the TV went black with a phone number in big white numbers. A voice said call for help and that was all that was sad. I took that to be for me. After removing the rope I stepped off the chair and proceeded to try and find my phone. After a great length of time I found it down inside the couch. I turned to the TV and that number was still there. In fact it stayed tell someone pick up. After talking with that person I can’t remember his name or who he worked for I ender up in the hospital. I spent 14 day in the detox and suicide watch. The hospital staff told me I was nearly dead because I had drank every bit of nutrition out of my body. I had a iv in my arm for 7 days. After leaving the hospital in some what good health I started going to AA and started working the steps with a sponsor. I also started out patient treatment by mid July I started working my 8th and 9th steps. While working on making a list of people I needed to make amends to I was the first person to come up I tried to ignore it up I new if I did I would be right back at the place I was standing on that chair. I had a secret I kept sense I was 5 years old and that was that I was born as a male but I knew with out a dut I was sappost to have been Female. I decided that for the first time ever I would talk to my therapist about it. On August the 2nd I had a appointment with her. I was not able to take to her about it fear guilt and shame had such a hold on me. It ended up that that day the treatment center was discharging me that night. So there I was again. In that dark place full of fear about what to do. I decided that my Higher Power God helped me when I was on that chair maybe he would help again. I knew if I didn’t get this out I would surely end up drinking and then dead. I spent all night in prayer and meditation and at around 6 the next morning somethings happend. The only way to explain it is that the weight of the world was literally lifted off of me and I knew exactly what I had to do. All that fear guilt and shame was gone I was no longer afraid to say something about it and I called a Doctor I had heard about that treated transgender men and women. I have not thought of drinking since that day and I will never stop thanking God for saving my life. If ever anyone is having trouble with alcohol I’m there to help them and if someone is dealing with gender issues or suicidal thoughts I’m there for them as well true happiness is just 12steps away and God is just waiting for us to ask for help from are heart. Love you all Lannette
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January 28, 2022 at 11:01 amWow! love your candidness and honesty. Wonderful testimony to our God’s lovingkindness, and His tender mercies. May you continue to be blessed! and used mightily by the LORD.
In JESUS NAME. Amen!💓
Michaela from GloucesterPrayers: 882Requests: 53
January 28, 2022 at 4:02 pmThank you for sharing. Lord thank you for the work you have done. Please continue to bless. In Jesus name Amen
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January 28, 2022 at 7:23 pmThank God for his endless mercy♥️🙏🏻🕊
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January 29, 2022 at 6:56 pmYour story shook me to my bones. May God continue to give you the wisdom strength discernment faith power to continue to walk with Him. What a testimony. He set you free so He could use you to change this fragmented world of confusion that we all live in. God bless you abundantly and keep you faithful to your calling to be the truth and eyes of Jesus. Amen 🙏 Gods Chosen One GA
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January 29, 2022 at 11:25 pmAMEN🙏🏻♥️🕊
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