“Not seeing your children changes you as a person. I don’t feel angry or bitter, but every day I feel grief. I try not to feel. It’s too hard. There are times I look at photos of me with my kids and it feels like something out of a movie. It doesn’t feel real anymore. I wish I had squeezed them a little bit longer, kissed their foreheads one more time before I left them to sleep after telling them a story. If I let myself think about it, it hurts just too much so I try to tell myself this is a waiting game and the right thing will happen in the end.” “I haven’t seen my three children for 5 years. It was a bitter, horrible, exhausting separation with a lot of hurt on both sides. I hoped that my exes’ emotions would settle over time. For the first year I felt quite hopeful. In the second year, I felt waves of anger that my children were being kept from me and tried to fight in court. It was in year three that I had a nervous breakdown. It’s hard to find words to describe how much it destroys you, not seeing children you created.
For some alienated parents the continuous heartache is similar to living death.” Sadly, for many rejected parents, the sorrow never ends.
Promise me you’ll always remember: You’re braver than you believe, and stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think.
TODAY I AM REFLECTING SINCE THE ABDUCTION OF MY CHILDREN BY THEIR MOTHER TO FRANCE. IT IS THREE (5)YEARS SINCE THE LAST TIME I SAW MY CHILDREN.
“IT IS YEARS SINCE THE LAST TIME I HAVE SPOKEN TO MY CHILDREN. IT IS THREE YEARS EXACTLY SINCE I’VE OBTAINED ANY NEWS AS TO THEIR EDUCATION, HEALTH, WELLBEING……. AND SO MANY OTHER THINGS THAT ANY CONCERNED PARENT TAKES FOR GRANTED. I and a mighty miracle can you please Pray the Judge in France will Decide my case that has gone on for 5 years not resolved. December 26, 2016 is the last time I spoke to my children by video chat and August 1, 2016 is the last I hugged my Children. This is all coming to a conclusion. Please keep us in your Prayers and share this. 🙏💔😭

Lord, I am weary and don’t know when this “race” will end in my life. I feel like I’ve been running forever, trying to outrun this trial. Help me to stop trying to outrun my pain but rather run with endurance the race you have set before me. I know that because of you I am ultimately a victor over the trials in my life. I know that nothing in this world can separate me from your steadfast love.
Please give me a measure of your love today; give me the strength to endure this trial. Thank you for your love for me that never ends! And thank you for the crown of joy that awaits me forever in your Kingdom!
Lord Jesus, my Wonderful Counselor, please hear my cry for help, for You are my only hope. I bring my requests to You and wait expectantly. I know You hate evil and cannot tolerate pride and lying. In Your unfailing love, come alongside me in this court case as my Wise Counselor and Defender. Guide me in the right steps I need to take to conquer this court case. Make Your way plain for me to follow. Help me to speak clearly, confidently, and convincingly when I give my testimony, so I win my case. Amen.
Gracious Father, I need to make a number of important decisions regarding this court case. Please guide me and give me divine wisdom in knowing what to do.
Lord, my Rock and Redeemer, thank you for being the light of the world, guiding my steps on your path. Your word says that if I trust in you with all my heart and do not lean on my own understanding, submitting to you in all my ways, then you will make my paths straight. Guide my words, thoughts and deeds. You are able to do far more abundantly than all that I ask or imagine, according to the power at work within me. To you be glory throughout all generations, forever and ever. Through Jesus Christ, our Lord. Amen.