Today Pamela, I heard your prayer about God telling you that you cannot divorce your abusive husband and you are very mad at God. I am sorry but I am that man too. I am sure he is telling my wife the same thing. It is hard to accept that the only reason she is here is because God told her to stay. However, I have chosen to give my life and soul to Jesus and let him (and a professional therapist) help me. I am praying that your husband will see the light and be equally yoked with you in your marriage. I believe he has already answered your prayers.