Please pray for my peace in this matter.
My son and his wife had my first grandchild on May 16 th. A little boy.
My husband and I live 6,000 miles away from them, but was included in the play by play birth, I was feeling so emotional being so far away from them, I just wanted to be included in the joy of it all , that in my desire to love them so intensely and feel closer thru electronic communications soon became a threat to them and they excommunicated me completely from their lives.
I’m completely devastated. I’ve tried everything to reconcile just so that I can still be included in the joy of being a grandmother. Sending cards And gifts asking for forgiveness ,Instead I am deemed toxic for loving too much.
There is no voice of reason to them, I’ve begged for forgiveness in whatever they feel I’ve done, there is no willingness to reconcile and I can only assume this is a dark spirit that has built a wall between my family and myself. This has caused me such inner turmoil that satan has talked me in to believing I’m that awful person they say I am. I just wanted to get a picture now and then of the baby and hear his coos and voice. I just wanted to love deeply. Like my friends who say there’s nothing else like being a grandmother. This joy has been torn from me.
I don’t understand how this has happened. I’ve always been so close to my son.
Please please pray for a restoration. I’m lost without my sons occasional phone call and I feel so broken and lonely inside waiting and hoping I’ll see him again, I’ll never know my grandson, Rowan. I wanted to be the best Nonna ever because I was an orphan and had no one. And now all I have is faith that Jesus will never leave or forsake me. But I’d still ask for prayers of reconciliation because I know Jesus feels my pain he will take care of this in His time.
Please pray for me. I’m so sad. Thank you , Camie