Stepping out in Faith – I guess my first stumbling block
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December 29, 2018 at 3:24 am
Father tonight in this experiment of only 4 days, I heard the enemy say “no one wants to hear your stupid thoughts” just like that. So in this moment I say Get Behind Me Satan, I am a Daughter of the Most High God, and He loves whatever I have to say, even when I’m being silly. I will confess my sin to you Father of talking gossip about who will be our new manager at work, you have told me numerous times that part isn’t my business, and reminded me tonight again in Proverbs that stirring up strife only causes problems and I know better, oh it’s so easy.
Again I find myself at a loss at what to do with my niece, it’s pretty much a relationship of I’m out of their sight so I’m out of their mind, and though the plan of going to the gym together is a fantastic idea, and I still have hope, I can’t be the one dragging along. I have a life and responsibilities. I’m also tired of being the “Disneyland” aunt. Like I know Sweet niece that you have been sick and haven’t felt good, but I think that with all the growing we have done, I at least am valued enough to warrant a merry Christmas text, not silence for 2 weeks, and then when you are ready to go to the gym again “hey aunt angie, I’m feeling better”,
Lord, If I’m being selfish and not practicing Grace, just tell me what to do, I also feel I need boundaries. Because God, what I really want to say, “if you want to have the same relationship with me for the rest of our lives, that I have with me and my father, your grandpa, then hey, let’s just keep doing what we are doing, because, I’m good, I have Jesus, and my family God gave me. I’m functioning fine. I’m trying to restore this broken relationship with you because I love you, but If you don’t want to put in any effort, then hey, no problem, I’m out. We already got that. because God, I feel like I have crossed the bridge as far as I can go. Aunt Angie cant sit and waite by the phone hoping they want to do something, I have business to do, and things to accomplish. and oh wait, I work for living. yeah that thing that I go to to pay the bills that no one else in my family does.
Oh man was that a rant. well, I’m hoping God just hears it. but there it is.
God I haven’t lost hope, because I know you work miracles. And my family has been beyond my comprehension before I became a Christian so all I can do is give it all to you and pray for direction. I told my niece that I couldn’t talk to her today I needed some space because I was happy to finally hear from her, angry and sad and mad all at once and she had no idea what she had done. I said I couldn’t talk about it today because the only Aunt Angie she would see was the Lecturing Aunt Angie and it is well established that she tunes her out. so I told her I’d talk to her next week.
tonight God was the hardest drive home. I’m just so tired.
I’m going to shut it down.
I will wait for the answer God. What I really want, is a miracle in Katie’s heart. I pray she learns to think. I pray that oh I don’t know. you know how you created her. you know what she needs. you know what I need.
I’m feeling bad to you dabbers if you read this and I’m being a downer. it’s just a forum I’m finding so easy to put it out there God.
Well I want to end in praise
OH LORD MY GOD
WHEN I IN AWESOM WONDER
CONSIDER ALL THE WORLDS THY HANDS HAVE MADE
I SEE THE STARS, I HEAR THE ROLLING THUNDER
THY POWER THROUHG OUT THE UNIVERSE DISPLAYEDTHEN SINGS MY SOAL, MY SAVIOR GOD TO THEE
HOW GREAT THOU ART
HOW GREAT THOU ART
THEN SINGS MY SOUL, MY SAVIOR GOD TO THEE
HOW GREAT THOU ART
HOW GREAT THOU ARTok good night
all will look brighter in the morning (lots of good stuff did happen today, I promise , just got a little stuck)
God is Faithful in the Evening, and His mercies are NEW every morning.
thank you JesusDecember 29, 2018 at 9:06 amThis is the day that the Lord has made! I will rejoice and be glad in it!! YES!!
It’s a chilly 26 degrees out! Unusually cold for us. I’m praying for snow on NYE and so are my kids. It snowed the first NYE we cake out to visit Tucson for the first time 2014/2015. Even if it just snows where we are- God is able! ❄️❄️❄️❄️❄️❄️❄️❄️❄️❄️❄️
Angie, don’t listen to Satan he’s a liar. You keep writing on this Prayer Wall as much as you want. I like listening to you and praying with you and for you. God is accomplishing a lot and Satan doesn’t want that, of course. Like I’ve been saying, I’m proud of you!
I’m sorry about your niece. My advice. Pray for her and love her. Set boundaries. Let her be who she is and learn as she grows. You know we can’t make people learn, see, or care when they are oblivious. Don’t worry. Be thankful girl! That’s who you are- live it! You are a walking testimony!!
It was quite a rant! 🤣
Give thanks for your new manager and bless them- pray for them. Stand up for them when others don’t. I did that for a new boss once and God worked big miracles through it! I’ll always remember!! So awesome!! 🥳
Bless Angie and her niece. Unite them in love. Teach them Holy Spirit. Give Angie wisdom and discernment. Amen and amen!
How Great Thou Art!! I’m glad you closed with that. YES!! Father, You ARE SO GREAT!! We love You! We adore You!! You are worthy of all our praise- always- no matter what is going on in our lives!! Rather than get sucked into the muck I purpose in my heart to praise You and by the power of Your Spirit living in me, I will do it!! Glory!! ❤️💕❤️💕❤️💕❤️💕❤️ In Jesus’ Name I pray. Amen!
December 29, 2018 at 9:34 amDear Lord thank you that our Hope is in you. We are all in the spirit when we are about your business. In the loving name of our Lord Jesus Christ we pray.
December 29, 2018 at 11:37 amFather Thank You for my sister Angie, EXACTLY as she is right now, in Your Hand, with her name carved in Your Palm, that You CANNOT fail, that You WILL NOT forget, Forever in Your eyes, in every moment You Give.
Father Thank You You for my sister Angie, and YOUR Love that beams from her, as You are ALIVE in her, right here, on this wall and in, exactly, every moment You have Given her, right were she is, in her home, a blessing, in her work, a blessing, in her ever breathe, a blessing, Loving one another, today.
In His name, the Word of God, Jesus Christ. Amen.
December 29, 2018 at 11:37 amthanks guys. Janal, (I love that name, one of my , adoptive nieces because I just adopt all my friends children, her daughter has that name, and she is precious to me.) It’s so ironic to me that I can have all these niece and nephew relationships with all these “adoptive” children, of my heart. Yet my Biological, well…I’m out of sight and out of their mind, But God has made me promises so I hold onto them.
But you mentioned How Great Thou Art, It’s the only Christian Song I know that is the current LDS hymn book that didn’t get changed with lds doctrine (I am now learning that I know tunes but don’t know words and discovering that they aren’t Mormon Hymns, they are old Christian Hymns that were changed). Anyway, just a note of reference Amazing Grace isn’t currently isn’t in their hymnal. They are in a process of changing their hymnal. The last time it was changed was in the 80s. I remember this change. it was a fun time for me. I was so excited that HOW GREAT THOU ART was in it. So God, I don’t know how you want to use this change for them, but let’s pray into this change. Use it Father, You know Father, You know what will bring them to you.
But I believe it was this Song that somehow found a grounding for me. Thank you Jesus for this song that found a way into this Mormon heart, that planted truth in my heart, when I was surrounded by lies. Because when I know I’m surrounded by a soundtrack of songs to reach from, that is the song my heart knows without trying, Thank you Jesus. That is the song that is an unmovable force in my corebelief system. That is the song you didn’t have to rip apart to get to the truth. This song was the only song that came with me. Thank you for this song.
Thank you For teaching me Boundaries, for I have had to set them up my whole life with my Family, and though it has been painful, and sometimes very very lonely, It has been very necessary because without them, I would have their life, and not the LIFE I have now, because Jesus, I truly do have a life that when I as 20, I never thought I would have a life, I thought “well I guess I’ll just exist, I don’t know what else I’ll do”. So look at me now.
Father Give me the words to say to her, because I know you have also called me to teach her, so if you have brought me to it, You will bring me through it, I just have to wait for it. I can’t force it, and when I’m lecture aunt angie or preachy aunt angie she doesn’t listen, but I’m also not always fun aunt angie, and always time to play aunt angie. You know what you want her to learn Father. You know what you want me to teach her. So, I will wait until you give me the words. I’ll have my notebook or computer ready and i’ll make a draft and if I need someone to proof it, I know that will happen too.
So thank you
I wanted to end on a playful note I came in from outside and I went to sip some coffee
and it sometimes I just get so overjoyed over the mere fact that there is no condemnation over the fact that I have not only had 1 cup this morning, but I’m going to have another, and I’ll probably have another, before I go to work this afternoon. lol
Thank you Jesus for the Freedom of being able to drink Coffee, and it’s so crazy people, you should see the coffee shops around here. I mean yes starbucks is huge, beans and brews, and all the little places, and everyone is buying coffee. haha,
Soo cheers up to all the rebellious coffee drinkers in UTAH. oh on that note, if you want to pray for a little ministry out in a small Utah campus city I think it’s called “the Rock café” I believe it’s in Ephraim oh man I can’t remember, but it’s a college town. And they put up a Coffee shop across the college campus with a Bible museum. Kids who have never had a cup of coffee come in ……Anyway, 2 things these kids no nothing about. Coffee and the Bible. Just sayen I think I might take a weekend trip this summer and go, just to check them out, and hey lets pray into them.Thank you Jesus for you Amaizing Grace,
And I would be remiss if I didn’t follow Janal’s advice and pray for my managers. Father, bless them. forgive them. help them. bless bless bless them. help me to be supportive to them.
thank you father for your mercies.
thank you for this wonderful ministry that is DAB. Bless all involved in bringing it to us, and bless the DAB FAMILY, AND MAKE US BIGGER THAT MORE MAY FIND US THAT YOUR CHILDREN GET BIGGER AND STRONGER.
thanks family
AngieDecember 29, 2018 at 11:39 amps…sorry Janel, I totally spelled your name wrong, and I apologize. I totally knew it too, but apparently my fingers didn’t
December 29, 2018 at 12:05 pmHa ha!! You crack me up Angie. I know how spelling is…no big deal- I try, but sometimes when I’m typing fast and furiously, it gets all messed up. Oh well.
Wow! I forget what simple pleasure coffee is. Crazy that you were without out and now you can choose to have it as you wish. Yay!!! I celebrate your freedom!! I want freedom for everyone!! Very cool about that cafe. Let’s pray for it.
Father, lifting up Rock Cafe in Utah to You. Bless the business, the owners, the staff, customers and all those who enter. May they all be filled with Your Holy Spirit. May Your love and peace permeate the air and be a blessing to them all as well as all those they come into contact with- family, friends, neighbors, strangers. YES!! Thank You for it! Thank You for coffee. I enjoy it! Thank You that DAB offers coffee that contributes to the ministry! Bless it, too. And yes, thank You for DAB and all those that serve in it. Let it grow and be strong- a wonderful representation of You, drawing others to You and making our family healthy and strong. You are SO good! I bless You! Bless Angie’s nieces and nephews, coworkers and managers. I praise You for leading people out of Mormonism, but still I pray You bring it crashing down- exposed for what it is- lies – and the work of the enemy to lead people astray, and rob You of all that is due. I’m ready for it to fall and be no more!! I pray for the false prophets and leaders to fall on their knees in repentance and for salvation to come to them and all their families and the families they led astray. This is awesome and all because of Angie. ha ha ha!! I laugh because little did she know what You’d do with her simple obedience to step out in faith and post on the Prayer Wall. Lord, please remind me to pray for this every day until it happens. You can choose to do it however You want, but You know I’m not asking for change, improvement, or dwindling numbers. I want to see it totally collapse and be no more! You tell me to ask BIG because You’re BIGGGER and NOTHING is impossible for You!! YES!!! I will keep asking Daddy! I hope this is a permanent reminder to me and others, what You do when we take one simple step of obedience. You do AMAZING things!!! I love it!!! I love You! I bless You today, Daddy. You are awesome!! I praise You! I pray in Jesus’ Name. Amen and Amen!
December 29, 2018 at 1:16 pmI’m about to post something else, but I wanted to say thanks for using the word Daddy. I have never had that modeled for me. It took me a long time to get to Father God. I grew up Heavenly Father, that for my heart I can’t use, though I have no problem from other Christians because I know they didn’t grow up Mormon, but if I use God or Father God to my Mormon Friends I’m quickly brought back to Heavenly Father, we are brought up somehow, I’m not sure how, but referring to God as God is bad, I don’t know why or how but you don’t say God, it’s heavenly father always. I guess in the temple the word God is used, I can’t remember anymore praise Jesus. But God has me using Christian terms. the Mormons have to get used to the different terminology. I won’t conform to them. I am not cursing by saying God. I don’t use it in vain, but when I’m talking about God, I say God. I would blow them away by Daddy, lol. I blow me away with Daddy, though I’m finding joy in the concept, and for now Father God is good and God knows that I didn’t even call my own Dad Daddy, so that word isn’t even in my own vocabulary, so please keep modeling it for me. I need to be surrounded by it, and one day it will come rolling off my tounge, and I’ll say, “hey God, I just called you Daddy, and we will chuckle”
December 31, 2018 at 12:05 pmSweet Angie – Our Father loves everything you have to say to him, good, bad or indifferent. He and I have had many talks over the years and I can testify that there is nothing, not one thing, that I cannot say to Him, including anger or sadness. His shoulders are big and He can handle all that we have. Give it to Him.
I have a similar situation with a cousin as you have with your niece. The wisdom God has shown me is that she is not there to be MY friend, rather, I am there to be her Christian support and encouragement. When I need a friend, I call one of my Prayer Group gals. However, I am also learning to maintain my boundaries. So the fact that when her dad, my cousin, died recently and no one called to let me know – I live 2,000 miles away – hurt my feelings. I told her that. I’ve known him 45 years. I ended up not going to his funeral. But it’s his daughter who is angry at me for not answering my phone when she says she called. There is no record of my missing any calls from her. Now she wants to tell me her troubles and have me listen. I’m waiting on the Lord’s direction and timing on this one. I will call her when the Lord tells me to do so. Ask the Lord if your relationship with your niece is one of mentoring, rather than of mutual friendship. It might be.
Praying for the downfall of the Mormon cult! Turn each and every person to You, Lord! Remove the blinders from their eyes. Help them see How Great Thou Art!
We pray success for the Rock Cafe. As each person enters their doors, help them see, feel, smell and hear You and be overwhelmed with Your love and gracious acceptance. In this, bring more and more people to You, Father.
December 31, 2018 at 7:43 pmThank you for the last prayer already breakthroughs, keep praying. I’ll share all praise reports to come. Mentorship is the calling and I’m receiving the revelation. Thank you Holy Spirit.
Angie
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