Praying for you, Anne. We are more than conquerors, and you possess the mind of Christ. Every day we are made new. What helps me is to record myself reading a bible verse and then playing it back on loop so that I can meditate on it. Praying God will equip you to handle your struggles. You are already victorious because of his victory. So don’t allow yourself to be sick of yourself at all, see yourself as He sees you instead. God bless you.